apology.

you know how it feels when you've done something great and you were living that moment. smiling and laughing at the success you have just achieved. well, that was me.
i'm saying it was because it was that. now, its a good thing gone bad and sour. now all i wish was for the things to go back where they were.
its a different thing when i'm in pain. i've learned to cope with it but its a different thing when someone i love was in that miserable state. i hated it.
*sobs.
i just hope by the time i write this. things will be okay. maybe.