a little more personal.

You see, i was never the kind of girl that would come to you crying and tells her heart out about her problems, and you know why? Because i was broken.

I don’t trust people.

Those words of ‘ i’ll be there for you when you need me’ tickles me to the bones.

How could you promise me those words when you were never there when i need you?

How could you say those words when you simply go away when i said i was fine?

It breaks my heart very badly when i would do anything to treat you right and you would not do the same for me.

I would be there for you, and i will, even if you push me back,

Don’t you know me well enough to know that im not okay?

That when i say,’ im fine’ that means that i need you the most at the moment.

I cry alone everytime, wishing you would know how i feel but you never do.

You promise i wouldn’t get hurt but you were the one that hurts me everytime.

I made up my mind, that maybe just maybe, if i was happy all the time, you would realise how fragile i was.

I mean how is it possible that a girl has no problems? Little miss sunshine is an idea full of crap, you should know that.

But you were simply ignorant, admitting that i was fine and simply going on with life with that stupid reason.

I wish i could tell you everytime that i was sad, i wanted to cry and that i needed you but i cant, not by how you are treating me now.

I just wished that you would realise how insignificant all of you makes me feel all of a sudden,

friend understand friends? And ‘i’ll be your best friend forever?’ BULLSHIT

I think i’ve realise long enough to understand that, you were not there when it matters but i was there for you. I would not even let you shed a tear but you made mine flood,

so guess what?

Game over, the world better be ready to embrace the new me because im sick of beign the one to caress you when you stick that knife right into me.

Im sick and tired. and

i don’t believe in you anymore.