my heart is breaking.

do you know whats hard?

to pretend that you're happy when you're silently crying.

to not be hurt although you're all bruised inside.

to make him happy when he hurts you every time.

to call him up when he doesnt even bother to text you.

to be happy with him when he doesnt even bother to care.

to wake him up when he doesnt even tell you to.

to want to talk to him when he doesnt want to talk to you.

to think of him when he doesnt even remember you.

and to love him when you know he'll never be yours.